I'm ready...

At least that's what I keep telling myself, but I am beginning to wonder if I really am. I feel this need to move onto the next "chapter" of my life, I hate that phrase, but I don't feel God leading me to anywhere in particular except for where I am now. I lack patience, this I know. Normally I am relatively good about being patient but then I crack and I have a weak moment. I don't know if you can call it a moment when it lasts for weeks. :-( I hate being this way. I know that God has bigger and better things for me so why do I doubt him? Do I really believe that or am I just appeasing myself? Ughhhh! Why do I keeping questioning myself and God? I always thought I was stronger than this but I am not...none of us are.

I see myself trying to do it myself and then I wonder why I am miserable. I need to go back. I need to let God lead me and I need to be patient. Please pray for me my friends. I really need to trust God instead of myself or others because they will always disappoint me, but not God. He has always been there for me even when I turn my back on him. I pray that I will stop being the brat I have become and just wait on his provisions.